Greeting and a very august August to you all. Feeling great today on this bright, sunny albeit hot Carolina afternoon. Very happy to be over my rather unpleasant caffeine sickness from yesterday.
My addictive nature never ceases to amaze and frustrate me. How I can indulge in substances that lead me down a path (or banana peel) to physical and mental suffering all for the short term sensation (whatever it is) I receive impresses me. Fortunately, I put down the alcohol and drugs quite a few 24 hours ago. My system is VERY sensitive and getting more so as I clean my internal house of the accumulated years of slug.
Caffeine in my little world is definitely a drug which causes me to mood alter and then crash. My little addict loves it. My wanna be healthy, grounded self has other ideas, so the tug of war goes on. Fortunately, the latter has been prevailing lately (for the most part that is).
So today I got up meditated, ate a good wholesome breakfast, did vitamins, sat in the sun for 20 mins (very important for vita D), will go to the gym and qi quong class later (ain’t I just the little goody goody) and have a new resolve to stay caffeine free. The important thing for me is not to revile myself when senor addict gets his way again and I succumb to that cup of java or green tea. I will try to think it through beforehand and make a choice of wellness (just say no to the evil brew) and avoidance of suffering.
Of course I am not advocating against caffeine as I know it has a wide range of effects on different folks. I talk about it to promote heightened awareness about those areas (often diet related) of our lives that cause us to suffer and that we tend to not pay enough attention to (or flat out don’t want to look at).
So I have been reading Dr. Mercola’s web site lately and he has had some excellent articles on depression and nutrition. You can google his name to find the site. He has an extensive archive of articles on the subjects (in fact, he is so prolific I wonder if he is one of us)
Another thing that has been arising for me this week is the concept of flexibility in my life. I will contemplate the coming day, or hours for that matter and will often carefully plan (or over plan as the case usually is) my activities. I am finding more and more that since my energy and moods are subject to fluctuations (sometimes quite large in nature) that I have to remain present and respond in a helpful supportive way to myself. This often involves altering my schedule. Life becomes much more fluid, easy going and downright comfortable when I live in this manner. I also find that as an overly energetic being that I very often overload my platter (forget about that dinky plate crap) to overflowing which is the slippery slope to crashville. So today I try to go with the flow instead of being drowned by the under tow and I am not only surprised at how much gets done but more imortantly how well life gets lived. So happy flowing!!
