That thought you just had. I know how important it is to you. You just moved your foot in nervousness while reading this without knowing it. You read a little more thinking “I better feel something soon or I’m over it.” I write something hoping it will either make you feel or think or laugh or cry. Like Eckhart Tolle’ says, “words are just signposts. Not absolute truth. They are just pointing you in a direction.” The direction I want to go today is up, which is north I suppose – but not to the Pole above Canada but to outer space and beyond. We sit on this spinning earth, complaining that our egg salad needs salt and our girlfiend ignores us and our bank acount is shrinking. And to us this is the greatest God we know of, the supreme ruling force in our lives – what we want against what we have. We read spiritual teachings and try to overcome our neurosis, being “one with everything” through the teachings of Zen. We stub our toe and scream “GODDAMNIT!” At that moment, all hope seems gone and your reality is the pain in your toe, the project you wish you had funding for. Meanwhile, six billion others are doing the same, each in thieir own beautiful and horrible ways. Meanwhile, planet Earth keeps spinning and going around the sun and meteors come within striking distance but big brother Jupiter saves our lives again and gets no thanks. A black hole devours a star and all its planets just a million light years away and perhaps billions of creatures on a planet with it. All those souls drift back home and the moment they are embraced by the spirit waiting for them, true ecstasy comes. The incomprehensible nature and size of our known universe it as mysterious as the depths of the human mind and the illnesses that manifest inside it.
“When you looked down his throat, you could see the whole universe… It was inside that he was different.”
